There are many unreliable parents. My dad likes to drink, liquor, three meals a day, two large glasses per meal, and he gets drunk every day. When I was a child, there were quarrels at home every day, and cold wars broke out every few days. Whenever we had a quarrel or a fight, my dad would always scold me and belittle me in the most humiliating way. He would also involuntarily belittle me when he spoke. My mother also likes to scold me and belittle me in front of many people. I couldn't resist. I resisted my dad once when I was in elementary school. As a result, my dad and my mom got into a fight and smashed up the house. We were scolded and smashed until four o'clock the next morning. I had to go to school the next day. From then on, no matter what my dad said, it didn't matter whether it was right or wrong. I could only listen and couldn't give reasons. His idea is that you are my child. As a parent, you are right no matter what. As a child, you should obey unconditionally. There are also many times when I get scolded for no apparent reason. As a result, I have been timid and introverted since I was a child. The severe lack of love led to people being cheated by all kinds of scumbag men for money and sex. The most serious one was an abortion, and the other party ran away without any money or help. Later, I slowly struggled through society and endured many hardships before I saw many things and routines clearly, but I am no longer young. I haven't told my parents about everything that happened, because even if I did, they would only let all their relatives know. My father was a lavish spender when he was young. When we were young, my brother and I could not afford to pay school fees, buy clothes, or eat. We suffered a lot. Fortunately, we could go to my grandma's house to get food when we were hungry. My father nibbled on the old when he was young, and nibbled on girls when I was old to make money. Unfortunately, my abilities are limited. I am always rejected in interviews for jobs with low wages and no insurance. The salary is basically less than 2,000 a month. I have to work overtime for free. It is normal to get home around 11 o'clock every day. The highest monthly salary I can get is only 2,000. When I was in my early days, I could occasionally get 3,000 to 4,000 yuan in two months. I lived frugally, paid rent, and had to pay back the rent. My parents gave me 1,000 yuan when I just graduated. I had no choice but to borrow 5,000 yuan from others. In the end, even if my salary was increased, it would only be 200 yuan each time. It took me several years to save 7,000. I wanted to quit my job and take the exam, so I quit my job and started studying. My father called me and asked for 7,000, all of which I wanted to give him. As a last resort, I found a job in investment and financial management. As a result, the company's project management staff borrowed money when the project was in trouble. They deceived us into using a credit card of 50,000 yuan and said we would pay it back in two months. The company was hit by a thunderstorm and was in debt of 50,000 yuan. My dad called me and asked for more than 3,000 yuan. He gave it to me and later made money to pay off the debt. It was paid off in two years. I had no money left and was always in debt. My father rarely cared about me asking for money. Occasionally, I paid a phone bill, which cost 1,000 yuan a day. As for my younger brother, he is very much like my father in many ways. He has always been able to spend money as he pleased since he was a child. After graduation, he owed a lot on credit cards. My mother gave him 125,000 yuan one after another, and even lent him money to pay off the debt, which emptied the family's money. , there are still calls for credit card debt collection. As for why he owes so much money, no one knows exactly how much he owes. He has a bad temper and won't tell anyone. He is considered a mysterious existence in our family. No one understands him. He has loved lying since he was a child, and he has always talked. He always says what others like and makes others happy. Therefore, no one understands him since he was a child, until now. It can be regarded as going from a mysterious child to a mysterious adult.
As for my hungry father, he is very rough in educating his children. He either beats or scolds, and he still believes in the same old ways. If my brother makes a mistake, he can smash the TV and beat him very hard. My mother protects my brother. It's not like they had a lot of fights. When I was in middle school and high school, I slapped and kicked him in front of my classmates. In junior high school, I was forced to kneel down as a punishment. Anyway, all the punishments that insult human dignity will be used on my brother, and I will show off again at the wine table.
Relatively speaking, I received more insults and occasional beatings. The last time I was beaten was when I was a senior in college. As for the reason for each beating, I still don’t think it was me who did something wrong, it was him. It looks unpleasant. He is a domineering, unreasonable, alcoholic, and severely unable to control himself, but he is generous to outsiders.
He loves to party, drink and make friends. He has friends everywhere and is generous. When he was a child, he could stay away from home for a long time if he had money. Now think about it, if he and my mother worked hard at home and didn't hold those useless parties, they would have made a lot of money, so that we wouldn't be unable to pay tuition fees for elementary and junior high schools.
I was very poor in high school, so poor that my father found connections to enroll me as a poor student. In the end, the poverty subsidy for tuition and other expenses was 800 yuan. My father spent more than 800 yuan on dinner every day. I still feel speechless.
In short, you cannot afford to raise children after you get married, and you cannot afford to raise children when you are old. My grandparents have been strong all their lives and have not spent a penny on any of their children. On the contrary, their sons are thinking about how to make money from my grandma’s house. My grandma built a house for her three sons, married a daughter-in-law, and helped two A son bought ginseng land to help them support their family. My father sold all our ginseng fields and ran around the country doing business and lost everything. I was still young during the years when my father was doing business. My father came home once a year. Every time he came home, my mother would quarrel with him. When I was a child, my mother raised the two of us by herself. She had a very bad temper. My mother scolded my father in all kinds of ways. My father would hide out if he could. Later, my father's temper became worse and worse. My mother didn't dare to offend him, but she lost her temper. It's getting better.
Anyway, my parents are quite speechless, and my mother is also very unpleasant when she curses. She is lazy, doesn’t pay attention to personal hygiene, and loves to spit. Wash, pillows and mattresses are all black. So I did my own laundry from an early age.
As for whether my parents love me, they love me too. The only way to love is to not starve to death. If I can’t make friends with them in school, they will find a way to make friends with me. As for mental health, should I buy clothes and shoes, etc. They are unconscious, so when I was a child, I always picked up my aunt's and my aunt's sister's clothes.
As for the children's mental health, they don't care about their studies. If they can go to school, they can go to school. If they don't go to school, they can still make money, and they don't have to worry about our tuition fees.
As for my father’s belittling and insulting treatment of me when I was young, I think it was more to vent his inner anger. He was always angry and had nowhere to vent his anger. He might also accuse Sang and Huai and scold my mother. Anyway, he wanted to I didn't belittle him at all. I usually suppressed and belittled him at every turn just to prove that he was great. "Don't worry about you going to school, you will never be as good as me." This was his state of mind. As for my adolescence and rebellious period, I didn't have it. My dad talked about his children at the wine table with others, and said that I went to junior high school and wanted to be beautiful and wanted to wear nice clothes! I was listening on the sidelines and kept thinking about what I had done to make him think I loved beauty. In junior high school, my hairstyle was a very short boy’s haircut, and my clothes were school uniforms. There was no change of clothes at that time. I remember the school uniforms back then. The pants were too small and I couldn't button them, so I used a needle and thread to sew a loop to fasten them. If I took the clothes off, I could see that the pants were always open. When I grow up, I think that the fathers at the table may be discussing the problems their children encounter during adolescence. My father, who had nothing to say, specially arranged a crime for me to prove that he also cares about his children.
When I was a child, I didn’t have a correct view of love. I learned it from various idol dramas and novels. I always hoped that someone who was domineering, capable of fighting, and affectionate would save me. Get out of the sea of ??suffering.