You yourself said that your mentality is bad. This is the root of the problem. And what you need to know is that if your boyfriend wasn't so devoted to love, maybe you wouldn't love him so deeply. . . Because of the deep love, you are obsessed with those things in the past. You are greedy and want all his things to happen to you alone. In fact, you should thank your ex. If she hadn't been so ungrateful, this man would have nothing to do with you. All I want to say here is that when you don’t show up, he belongs to his ex and has nothing to do with you at all. So he doesn't need to be responsible for anything he does. After you show up, as long as he treats you right and doesn't do anything else, he is a person worthy of your love. Are you still like him, who has been waiting for all his stories for you since he was born? So I just want to tell you, cherish the present and work hard to create a better future with him. These things truly belong to you.