After countless quarrels, you did not stop gambling. I begged you countless times, but you didn’t stop gambling. You didn't stop gambling when you saw your innocent child being implicated. Seeing your parents’ disappointed tears, you didn’t stop gambling. Seeing my near-collapse despair, you didn't stop gambling. Finally, your family is ruined, your wife and children are separated, and your family is about to be destroyed. You decide to turn back.
Have you ever known that it is very difficult for us to survive now? Let’s not talk about high debts, let’s not talk about violent collection of online loans, let’s not talk about the bankruptcy of relatives at home, let’s just talk about the current situation. , basic life, even food and clothing is difficult.
In the past, I thought penniless was just an adjective, but now I know it is a fact. At one time, I thought that being hungry and having a full meal was just a reflection of life during the war, but now I know that it has always existed. In the past, I thought begging for mercy was a descriptive picture of a beggar, but now it has become a portrayal of my life. At one time, I thought that poverty would not exist in today's society, but I never thought that I would experience all this.
No matter how poor my life is, I never complain or lose confidence. I know that as long as I work hard, there will be bread. As long as the family stays together and works for the family, happiness will get closer and closer. However, you pushed us into the cliff again and again. My forgiveness and tolerance became your weapon to hurt us. I couldn't forgive myself. I began to hate myself, hate myself for loving you too much, hate myself for trusting you too much, I hate myself for being so self-righteous, thinking that you love me, thinking that you love my children, thinking that you are filial to your parents, thinking that you will become an upright man for the sake of your family, yes, I can really forgive you. , But, I really can’t forgive myself. If I weren’t so weak, I wouldn’t let you hurt me. If I could be a better version of myself, I wouldn’t let my children live a life of hunger with me now. I’m sorry, I can forgive you, but I can't forgive myself.
To be honest, I don’t know why you would gamble, borrow, or even use my information to borrow online loans behind my back. I can’t even understand why you borrowed money in my name behind my back. My relatives and friends have so much money, and I don’t know what method you used to keep me unaware. I am like a fool. I can’t forgive myself for my stupidity, but I can forgive you. Yes, everything has passed. Now you work hard, regret, and long for family. However, everything has really passed. If my leaving makes you a hard-working person now, I am willing to stay away for the rest of my life. I look forward to being with you so that you can have a hard-working life and a bright and happy future.
I am not anxious about the current suffering. I firmly believe that my children and I will get through it. For you, I choose to forgive. For me, I think I will hold a grudge for the rest of my life. I will use this to express my gratitude to you. I hate myself, try to become a better person, become the person I want to be, and no longer place my hope on you. In this way, we have found the direction of our efforts after leaving each other, why should we still be together. For the sake of the children? The child should hope that we are like this now, not noisy or quarrelsome, everyone loves him, and can still be a hard-working person.
The best outcome between us is that we don’t owe each other and never meet each other. Let the past pass and the future come. Our love, even family affection, exists in another form in this world. Existence is reasonable. Just like this, live, experience, and realize the meaning of your life.
Thank you! For the rest of your life you say: Hello. I said: Goodbye.