I can understand your current mood very well. After reading your experience, I am deeply touched. Many years ago, I had a similar mental journey to you. After so many years of stumbling in this market, I have seen too many people lose a lot of money in a short period of time (losing 50 million in two days, losing 200 million in eight days...). This market is not suitable for everyone. When I give lectures to clients, I often say that this market is like spiritual opium. Once you get involved, it is difficult to get rid of it. Although it cannot be ruled out that some people will mature after repeated defeats and defeats in this market, but such people are still a minority in this market, and the vast majority of people will eventually leave here sadly. I sincerely advise you to stay away from this market and work hard to do your job well. In traditional industries, as long as you pay, you will be rewarded sooner or later. It is just a matter of time. However, in this industry, for most people, you may not get rewards even if you pay. There are people around me who have been doing futures for more than ten years and are still losing money steadily.

Keep a calm mind. The money you lost can be earned back through your hard work. Treat this incident as an experience and a lesson in your life! When you are about to become a father, take good care of your family and create a good psychological environment for your child who is about to be born! Finally, I wish mother and son peace! good luck!