We walk in this secular society, just like exploring the direction in the dark. The reason why we want to see the stars is that there is not enough light.
Just like trying to know anyone in social situations, it is actually a kind of loneliness. The more you want, the less you want.
1
The first time I went to my brother's work, I always felt that he was surrounded by a group of friends who thought they were very red.
In those days, my brother and I squeezed into a small bed. Talk late every night and gently remind each other to go to bed early.
On the day I left, my brother went to the station to see me off, which was a little sad. After all, they are all from their hometown.
The younger brother said, I think I'm fine without you. I'm too lazy to talk to anyone when you're here.
The most trustworthy person only needs one, and his appearance is like the bright moonlight in the night sky. However, many times we still need to find loneliness. If we can't find the North Star, we may get lost. Looking up at the stars is just to find a trustworthy person and get rid of that loneliness.
2
That year, the shirt went to the construction site to see me, and I was moved beyond words.
When seeing her off, no one spoke in the waiting room of the station, and everyone bowed their heads and meditated.
It is time. She sat by the window, looking at me, making faces and waving to me.
Then she sent me a text message saying that I wanted to cry when I stood outside alone. No one wants to leave, and no one mentions it, but they are afraid to leave. Maybe the next time we meet, we will be red-eyed before we twist our faces.
In front of your lover, you don't need too many languages. Sometimes silence is the most beautiful love story in the world. In front of the person who doesn't love you, you use up all your words and drain all your tears, and maybe all you get is indifference.
When his lover leaves, he seems to have lost all his warmth. We have to run alone in a space without love.
three
Every year when I go home, I will set call restrictions, and I will not log in to QQ or WeChat.
I feel that there is the best sunshine and the freshest air at home. I don't need to look at anyone's face, nor do I need to consider anyone's face.
The person you miss most is right beside you, and the person who is most willing to help you is right in front of you. You don't need more support, let alone more encouragement.
Since we are going home for a holiday, we should return to the most primitive state. Eat the most delicious food and sleep in the most comfortable bed.
It turns out that in front of the closest people, we can really make ourselves very simple, give up all the future and all the disguises, and live completely like children. Compared with home, I will always be a lonely child outside.
four
When I resigned from my old company, I deleted hundreds of phone calls from my address book and left the phone numbers of three or five friends who hit it off.
During the Spring Festival, I will still receive text messages from old leaders. In the past, I will respectfully reply to my most sincere wishes immediately.
Why do you think so much when you quit? Just delete the message and blacken the phone number.
During this period, someone called to ask questions about their original work and found that a blunt answer was the most polite language.
The contacts and contacts that I worked hard to manage before became worthless at the moment I left. So in the workplace, no matter how many friends you have, there are only a few people who can really talk to you. Don't you dare say that you are not alone.
five
Before, there was a netizen who did WeChat business and always wanted to pull me in. But I know nothing about futures, and I'm really not interested.
He said, then we don't have to date again.
I don't understand: aren't we good friends? Do friends have to be interested?
He said: in our line of work, we are friends with everyone, but we never have friends. We need to make the most friends and don't need to remember any friends.
That friend never contacted again, but I always remember what he said.
They value money first, and don't care how he left her. All their thoughts are about money. Maybe they will see piles of money at home in their dreams and laugh. Maybe sleepless nights really don't feel lonely at all?
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I often pay attention to the literary creation website, which has people from all walks of life. There are teachers, armed police, freshmen and seniors, I have three-wheeled drivers and factory owners.
Everyone writes in their spare time, and editors also comment on other people's works in their spare time and write by themselves.
In order not to let their works be submerged, they will also form gangs and flatter each other.
Especially some editors, whose level is really average, are always attacked, and then let people in their own alliance stand up and play the bad COP.
You can't find these plates without paying attention. Fortunately, I have always been good at finding them.
Those editors and writers want to be famous and exchange interests with others against their will. They are the most typical social means. In fact, fame and depression are both loneliness.
The social pressure is so great that it is not easy for everyone to walk around the society. To survive, I have to do something I don't want to do.
People who have no lover should communicate more in order to get rid of singles as soon as possible; People without friends communicate more to find bosom friends; Businessmen hope to have more opportunities to make money;
There is a kind of loneliness called socialization. How many people pretend to be strong in order to survive and achieve their goals, and how many people associate with others with their disgusting faces. In the final analysis, in order to survive, they have to endure unspeakable loneliness.
When you don't need to think too much about socializing in your life, the happiness index is definitely the highest, so cherish those dull days, which is the most real.