You think you can get rid of death, but in fact, apart from letting the world know your incompetence, cowardice and escape, your only success is to pass on all your pain to the people and friends you love. Therefore, after you leave, you will be blamed for being irresponsible and irresponsible.
I don't know what kind of setbacks you have suffered, but it is very likely that you have been ruthlessly deprived of the benefits that should belong to you. If you can only admit that you are unlucky, and all you have to do is pray for God's mercy besides finding various reasons for your weakness, then you are synonymous with tragedy. Your departure will only encourage the arrogance of those mercenary villains, which is harmful to society.
It's not terrible to die. The terrible thing is that everyone, including yourself, thinks that you deserve to die, and then you will owe your biological parents a lifetime of kindness. Not in the next life, because you may never have a chance to be their child again.
Cheer up, there is no point in dying. Because even without you, the earth will still turn and the sun will still rise as usual.