I am also a speculator. I first learned to buy funds when I was in college for 10 years, then bought precious metals through online banking, and then entered stocks. I started entering the futures market last year. It has been a full year now and I am heavily in debt. The amount I owe is 6 figures.

As a graduate from a rural area, my family has always been in difficulty. For so many years, I have been thinking about how to make a lot of money and make quick money, how to get my family out of poverty quickly, and let my elderly parents live a good life as soon as possible.

In the past few years, I invested only a small amount in the stock market. Although I kept losing money, I didn’t lose much. In the early days of the bull market in 2015, I invested 30,000 yuan and made 80% of the profit. Then came the unprecedented stock market crash. I kept losing money and losing money. The stock market technology was not good.

All the money I earned was lost, including my capital.

I can be considered a novice in the stock market, and I always want to make it back.

Then I borrowed money and used credit cards. By May of last year, I had no choice, so I quit. At that time, my boss owed 10 credit cards.

The futures market was very hot in April and May last year, and then I left the stock market and entered futures. It has been a full year now, and my debt has quadrupled. Over the past year, my habit of doing futures is to fill up my positions. Why? Because I owe so much.

There are too many, and I always want to get some back quickly, which has greatly affected my mentality.

I have learned a lot about technology and operations in many places, but I cannot follow the normal rules. Under the pressure of debt, my mentality changes, resulting in undisciplined operations.

Doing futures is lonely, and there are few people to chat with.

In the past, when I was doing stock market, I could often find people to chat with in the group, but people who were doing futures rarely chatted.

There are only one to two million people doing futures in the country.

In the past year, due to the heavy losses, the QQ groups in the circle of friends have basically not bubbled up. I only chat with my colleagues at work, and I have become a lonely person.

I learned so many theories of business management when I was in college. I thought I could perform well at work, but the path is never what I thought. Just like futures, for people with an unsteady mentality, the day-to-day future is big.

If it goes up, the 30-minute line and the hourly line can also torment you to death, and then pull it up again. The trend is relative, and the loss is absolute.

The teachers I know who do futures do make money. Others' analysis and operations show that the profits are indeed greater than the losses, and they can double or triple in a month.

While others work full-time, I work part-time. If I go to work often, I may not always be able to follow the market, so I am destined to not be able to use other people's rules and trading methods.

I am 25 years old this year, and I owe so much debt. Now I have to pay huge debts every month. I am tearing down the east wall to pay for the west wall. The debt will collapse this month or next month. In today's society, credit has collapsed. It is estimated that in the next ten years

After all the fun, I was surrounded by poor relatives and couldn't help much, let alone at home.

People at home don’t know my situation. My monthly salary is not high, but I still have to provide money for my family. I don’t know what will happen next month or the month after.

This society is very realistic. What are the class classifications and the classification of people? If you want to break through from one class to another through hard work, what is the shortcut? Only speculation is the shortcut. Although countless people have died, this is a shortcut.

See the path clearly.

My parents are old, much older than the parents of other people of the same age. When I first graduated, I thought that I could only take a faster shortcut to let my parents enjoy a few more years. After graduating from college, I was not willing to go back to the countryside or to that place.

In third-tier cities, if you want to pursue your dream in a big city, things will only get worse and worse. Looking at the classmates and roommates around me who have been doing well in the past few years, compared to myself, I can only fail more and more.

If there were no losses in futures this year, I might be more successful at work, at least I think my work ability is also very good.

Now I am trying to figure out how to get out of the trap every day and how to avoid debt and credit defaults.

If I pay off the debt, maybe I will find a more challenging job. After all, my dream since childhood is to have a career. Maybe, I will continue to play futures, but I will no longer be so undisciplined and unruly.

This year has been enough to enrich my life.