In May, with the repeated toss and turns of being unemployed, my mood went up and down like a roller coaster. From another perspective, this is just the normal state of life.

In the ups and downs of fate, we must cherish the dormant period, make good use of the strength accumulated during depression, and accumulate great achievements in the not-too-distant tomorrow.

Keywords for May: Believe Believe in yourself: No matter when, no matter how embarrassed you are, never lose hope in yourself, and never give up on your own growth.

Believe in the power of "belief": Life is not a road in vain. Every step is getting closer to a better self. I hope all your efforts will come true one day in the future.

For a long time, with obsession, after walking through the long night, there is dawn.

1. Society & Work 1. I failed the public examination three times, which is a little regretful.

2. I took the business establishment examination and was accidentally admitted due to a difference of 0.1 points.

3. Pay attention to the recruitment information of institutions and enterprises.

2. Personal & Growth 1. Read six books: "Operation Guide for a Better Life", "Index Fund Investment Guide", "Fixed Fund Investment: Let Wealth Snowball", "Your Time is Limited, Don't Live for Others", "Writing is

The best self-investment", "Loving you like this is just right, my future child".

2. Learn to make mind maps and share them in relevant circles.

3. Join the vaes light community and learn goal management, copywriting marketing, and hobbies monetization.

4. Complete the knowledge planet check-in ten times, study the video course, make an appointment one-on-one with the teacher, and implement the fixed investment plan.

5. Join the diary plan, keep checking in for 13 days, refine it once, pin it to the top three times and post it on the official account.

6. Turn on the weekly review mode.

3. Economy & Wealth 1. Bank financial management income will arrive in your account within 120 days. Improving core competitiveness and accumulating principal is the way to go.

2. Implement the fixed investment plan and record it, and start the first fixed investment.

4. Health & Physique 1. Use keep to record a 40km walk with me. 5. Family & Life 1. Cook noodles with me for breakfast for my grandparents, and provide companionship and care.

2. Prepare gifts for the two mothers on Mother’s Day, and prepare a birthday gift for my mother.

3. Go to the farm with your mother to pick cherries and mulberries and feel the breath of early summer.

4. Let’s cook crayfish together at my fat house. It’s delicious.

6. Soul & Spirit 1. Watch variety shows: "My Favorite Women", "Extreme Challenge", "Me and My Agent", "Run".

2. Watch five movies: "White Snake", "Ride", "Brad's Midlife Crisis", "The Intern", and "The Tuner".

3. Share your opinions and current situation in your circle of friends for the first time and receive recognition and encouragement.

4. Have new expectations for giving birth to life.

5. Make your own dream list and sort out your steaming dreams. Each one is a thrilling feeling.

Some thoughts in May: By chance, I joined the diary project. In fact, I knew about this activity when it first came out, but I never thought about being a participant.

Maybe it’s the anxiety and leisure that are as low as the dust; maybe as the experience becomes richer, I am full of insights that I want to express; maybe I want to see that I, who has been fishing for three days and drying the nets for two days, can do this in the daily update

How long should I persist... I have never done any deliberate training, nor have I ever taken a writing class. I even read a writing book for the first time this month. I relied on my own insights into life and my own writing account.

A year of sensitivity to words.

In the thirteen days since joining the diary project, one article has been refined, three articles have been pinned to the top, and posted on the public account. This is the greatest motivation and affirmation.

Now that there is still plenty of time and full of passion, I can't say how long I can guarantee that I will be able to persevere, but there is a long road ahead, and I can look forward to it, right?

When I talked with the community manager about open source, she didn’t seem to agree with my way of improving my writing through diary plans.

In her view, if you don’t output on your own platform, you won’t win your own traffic and fans, and you won’t be able to bring greater value.

This is not the first time that this kind of frustration and doubt has happened to me. When I was unemployed, my best friend once said to me: The current task is to find a job first, and those handbooks and other things can’t bring any obvious results.

Value, let’s put it aside for now.