There are many people who are better than me and can make a comeback. I mention my illness, debt, and inability to work here not to gain sympathy from others, but because I hope to record this period of life that will never happen again.

Only by having the courage to face the past can we better welcome and look forward to the future.

Let’s talk about bipolar disorder first. Bipolar disorder, the scientific name is bipolar disorder. The most painful thing about this disease is that patients will have two states: a hyperactive phase (manic phase) and a depressive phase.

Patients in the manic phase will show abnormal excitement, get angry easily, and have a sharp reduction in sleep time. They may even feel that they are the masters of the world and often do reckless things.

But this kind of high energy can only last for a short time, and all energy consumption points to the ensuing period of depression, which is the real painful moment.

Continuous sadness and fear sweep over you, and you will lose all ability to work, study, and socialize in an instant. This kind of pain has no root cause. After the onset of the disease, patients will refuse help from others, isolate themselves, and even lose love because of it.

And the ability to be loved... For bipolar disorder, the most terrifying thing is not that no one loves, but that "all the love that surrounds me is useless."

They lost the ability to feel love, and the pain engulfed him, which made him feel that existence was meaningless. He mutilated himself in order to make himself aware that he was still alive.

And suicide became the last outlet for their pain.

It is reported that the suicide rate of bipolar disorder is as high as twice that of depression. Some studies suspect that many depressed patients who commit suicide may simply have bipolar disorder that has not received appropriate treatment.

Feel happy first before you can see the roses.