01

The air was very good that day, the blue sky and white clouds reflected it, and the breeze was refreshing. The sun spreads all over the earth, and the succulents on the windowsill guard a small area, growing wildly toward the sun, and are incredibly lush.

Look how good they look. When you bought it last year, you were worried that you wouldn't be able to keep it alive, so you cared for it like a baby, and now it finally lives up to you.

I held the glass and lowered my head to stare at the tea leaves that stretched, rotated, and slowly sank in the cup. Thinking of the dust in this life, my eyes still hurt from the heat.

Xiao Yuer, I looked up at the window and opened my mouth to call you, only to find that my voice was extremely sour.

You watched the fleshy figure freeze, but did not look back.

After all these years, you are still so thin, which makes people feel pity for you. After a long pause, I found my voice, let's break up.

For so many days, we have been waiting for this sentence, and it seems that as soon as it is said, we have given up on each other.

OK. You responded softly, silently looking out the window.

White doves are flying on the roof not far away, but your back in the sun is a past that I can no longer touch.

The next day you dragged your suitcase and left without even taking away the meat, leaving me with a home that you personally decorated and filled with your breath.

It’s just that when you leave, home will no longer be a home. It is just an empty room, so quiet that it’s scary.

Six years, six years. We have broken up four times in the past six years, and this time we both know that we are really separated.

From now on, one is separated and the other is wide, and everyone is happy.

02

How long is six years?

In the past six years, the good friends who once attended classes, had meals together, and talked all night together have now become separated and become strangers to each other. The person who once said he would treat you well for the rest of his life has already married someone else. My parents, who thought they would never grow old, grew gray hair on their temples.

How many six years are there in life? How many times has it been so unforgettable?

For six years, you accompanied me step by step.

After we were together in our senior year, we measured every inch of the school’s land with our feet, looked at every tree, and fed countless wild cats downstairs in the third classroom. The lotus flowers in Xuesi Lake are blooming and withering, and the sweet osmanthus is fragrant for ten miles. You said you love the white magnolia most. As winter goes and spring comes, it blooms before the Qingming Festival. It is full of flowers all the way. The flowers are large and white, and they bloom upward when they bloom.

Your favorites are the fried pork chops and spicy hot pot in the Eastern Canteen, the duck blood vermicelli soup at the school entrance, the Sichuan cuisine in the Northeastern Dumpling House, and the beef in sour soup and stir-fried spinach in the Western Canteen.

Because you love to eat and are gluttonous, and for the sake of health and saving money, after graduation you made a fire and cooked in the small house we rented. Good food.

You have cultivated my taste to be so cunning, what should I do in the future?

03

We had just left college five years ago and had nothing. In order to save money, we lived in a shared house in Jiading. I work in advertising and you work in human resources. It takes more than an hour on the subway, and it often takes us until late at night to get home from overtime work.

Although we live in poverty, we are very happy. After we have received our salary, apart from daily expenses such as rent, water, electricity, firewood, rice, oil and salt, we will invest part of it for me, save part of it, and leave some for you to buy clothes and shoes. ,cosmetic.

We will also occasionally go to a better restaurant for a luxurious stay and try dishes from various countries. When I have free time on weekends, I watch movies, visit the Shanghai Museum, major parks, and see exhibitions like this, which makes my life colorful.

Later, work got on track and life gradually improved, so we rented a house in the city. One bedroom, one living room and one study, which is still not big, but it is still an independent space for the two of us.

You buy curtains, tablecloths, bookshelves, plants, shoe cabinets, and wallpaper, and decorate them bit by bit, making it warm and sweet. I often think that it would be nice to be like this for the rest of my life.

We agreed that we would only have one daughter in the future, give her the best education and environment, give her the most love, and take her to eat delicious food all over the world and see all the beautiful scenery in the world.

Gradually I started to accumulate savings, and my funds and stocks made some progress. I bought a car and a house in Kunshan. I had the pressure of repaying the loan, and my life was a little tight.

After I got the house, I brought my mother to live with us. I know you are unhappy. But you also know that after my father passed away, I was dependent on my mother. She worked hard all her life to raise me and send me to college. No matter what, I should enjoy the happiness of my son.

Because of the different living habits and growing environment, you and your mother often have friction, but I always think that life at home is always like this. Every family has its own sutras that are difficult to recite, and I will be your lubricant. , it will always be fine.

I just didn’t expect that we would not reach the end after all.

04

I had an irregular diet in high school and often stayed up late, so I got stomach problems. I have never relapsed since I was with you. You and I eat small meals frequently, eat healthily, and exercise moderately.

The western playground of the school is open to the public. Every evening, surrounding residents come with their children to exercise, walk, and chat. We jog along the track, enjoying the wind in the summer and the cold in the winter.

There were social events after work. You told me to eat more food before drinking, and never drink on an empty stomach. You then prepared sugar water or milk and waited for me to come home. You made sure that I was okay before you could rest assured.

You like dolls the most. You have to bring a few back every time you go out. The sofa at home is filled with rows of them. Now you will never come back to see them again.

You are a sharp-tongued person, and your words are decisive and hurtful, but your heart is softer than anyone else. He is good at self-reflection and apologizes after he realizes his mistakes. He is sincere and cute.

When you are sick, you act like a child, acting coquettishly, refusing to take medicine, not eating, and unwilling to go to the hospital. You have to be coaxed, pampered, and cared for every time.

Meditating on the past and setting the sun, I just thought it was ordinary at that time.

The white magnolia is blooming again. The flowers are the same every year. Who will be there when the flowers bloom again next year? We are no longer who we are.

What kind of people will you meet when you go back? Who do you fall in love with and get married to? Will he be nice to you? Does he know your preferences, and does he care about your little moods and occasional unreasonable troubles?

I have thought about these questions countless times and have no answers. I not only hope that he will treat you well and give you happiness, but I am also afraid that he will treat you too well and make you forget me soon.

Hey.

05

When you graduated, your parents asked you to go back to Nanchang, but you insisted on staying in Shanghai. Later, you and them had conflicts over this matter.

When you took me home the year before last, they had many opinions. They complained that you were disobedient, that I was poor, and that you were too far away from home. I also know that they secretly arrange a blind date for you at home.

I also know that after the Chinese New Year, they held you captive and refused to let you return to Shanghai, but in the end they didn't bully you.

I promised them that I would wholeheartedly treat you well, and that I would work hard to earn money to buy a good house. I thought that where sincerity comes, gold and stone can open up, and one day they will accept me.

I am always kind to you, for fear that you will be wronged after me.

After my mother moved to live with us, your parents became even more intolerant. On the one hand, you comforted them, but on the other hand, you were angry with me. The conflict eventually got out of hand.

No matter how hard I try, I cannot meet their requirements in a short period of time. No matter how unfilial I am, I can never abandon my mother and stay with you. The world is like this, sorry husband!

It is understandable that they feel sorry for you and want their daughter to be happy. It's a pity that I am not your lover after all, and you have not been able to become my wife.

That day when you argued with them, your mother suffered a high blood pressure attack and fainted at home. The doctor said it was a "hypertensive emergency" and she was quickly sent to the emergency room for treatment before she was out of danger.

You stayed on the phone in a daze until you were sure she was okay before you collapsed on the ground. That night, we held each other and cried all night. We all know it's really the end.

There are always so many pressing forces in life that force us to have no choice. Are we wrong or are they wrong?

There are times in life when we get together and when we leave. Thank you for stopping by. From then on, each side of the world cherishes each other.

Yu Xiao, you must be happy.