There was a speech about the launching ceremony of the Charitable Fund for the Protection of Minors. As early as a month ago, I was notified that I had to prepare a speech.

I have been procrastinating for various reasons.

It was finally scheduled to be held at 10 o'clock this morning, and I only started to conceive of the speech yesterday afternoon. It was not until 5 o'clock this morning that I got up and started to actually write. I wrote it until about 8 o'clock, and finally the first draft was almost completed.

So, I started to have breakfast, put on makeup, get dressed, and print the document. When I actually sat in the cab, it was already 9:34, and the normal journey time was 35 minutes. I had to park and take the elevator, which meant I had to

Going to be late.

It was inevitable that I would be late, and the result was that the manuscript would be sent out and someone else would speak temporarily. The time I actually arrived at the venue was already 10:26.

No matter what I went through, the result was that I got up at 5 o'clock and was still half an hour late. What happened in the meantime?

I saw two particularly strong and conflicting voices in my heart: The social me said: Look, what a great opportunity to show off. This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, so don’t be afraid.

The child in me said: I just don’t want to speak, I just don’t want to stand on the stage.

I don’t know how to write or speak, and it would be embarrassing if I get stuck. I just want to sit quietly in the audience, without having to think about anything or do anything.

I just don't want to be pushed to the front desk.

Even though I could hear the voice of the inner child resisting, I still let her have sex rudely and regardless of the situation, but the inner child was also resisting in its own way.

He was reluctant to write the manuscript and was late due to various circumstances, making it impossible for him to speak on stage normally.

Finally, the inner child expressed what she had written in her speech in the form of sharing.

This not only satisfies socialization's need for expression, but also satisfies the inner child's need to not want to speak on stage.

The end of the matter is that the inner child wins, and he responds to protests and attacks in a very secretive and passive way.

Suddenly he was amused by himself.

Yes, the inner child wants to be itself willfully. There are some things it just doesn’t want to do, some people it just doesn’t want to see, and it just doesn’t want to take some roads.