The unobtainable sutra is called once, and the unobtainable result is called if. It always takes a moment of despair before you can stop hoping. Just that cry of despair - never again, and only once.

Maple

Jay is coming to my city to hold a concert. When I learned the news, I was watching the sunset under the wicker trees by the lake on campus. It really feels like autumn. The maple trees on the other side of the lake seem to be chasing the setting sun, blending with the red clouds on the horizon. It was Ye Zi who called me and told me. For a time, the news was like an arrow shot without warning, flying around the city quickly. Circle after circle, just like the year we were in a hurry.

The headwind is like a solution, and it is easy not to destroy. Walking along the lakeside road of the school, I was faced with a very cool wind. One leaf knows autumn. Sure enough, it is already late autumn in Wuhan. Time is the most tormenting thing. It is neither soft nor hard, but it is uncomfortable.

I have known Zhang Luyan for almost five years. From that beautiful and warm small town to the broader world of each other now, from autumn to autumn, it has only been five years since we have been together through wind and rain. I never dare to sigh about time, because it is so fast that it embarrasses me. After all, we still can't catch up with its pace, even if we sit on the powerful Noah's Ark.

This is 2014, I am twenty years old. We are both twenty years old.

This year, Jay finally announced that he was getting married. In the same year, Lu Yan and I said goodbye.

Goodbye - never again.

The slowly falling maple leaves are like longing, and I light candles to warm the autumn at the end of the year.

The aurora plunders the horizon, and the north wind passes by, missing your face.

I burned my love into fallen leaves, but I can’t replace that familiar face.

Give me time for a song

In November 2008, Jay Chou's new album "Capricorn" once again set off a craze in this small town. My name is Ye Zi, and I have been guarding this southern town from the moment I was born. Although we are located in the south, it is still extremely cold in late autumn.

Pedestrians on the street began to huddle up and walk with their heads lowered. Some fashionable women wrapped a silk scarf around them, letting their long black shawl hair and flowing silk scarf blow in the wind. Indiscriminately messy. In such a harmonious picture, I even felt that my appearance ruined the entire picture. I saw that everyone was casting gloomy looks at me, some with contempt, some with disdain, and most of them with confusion.

Is there anything good to see? This girl is not an alien. Is it worth attracting the attention of the public as soon as she appears? These days, people who are naturally beautiful can easily cause trouble. I looked at myself carefully again, from top to bottom, meticulously, but still found nothing.

"Classmate, you are wearing your sweatshirt inside out. The inner label is still outside." Suddenly there was a burst of laughter from the crowd, and some of the laughers even clutched their stomachs, their faces flushed. red. I looked around, and I really didn’t understand what was going on in today’s Chinese society. Has the social atmosphere evolved to this extent?

No matter what, I don’t change my surname when I sit down, or my name when I work, and I do things openly and aboveboard, so why should I be afraid of a little inexplicable laughter from the public. It's simply unbearable.

"Hey, classmate, the classmate in front of me."

"Classmate!"

Finally, a huge roar split my chaotic head brain. Finally, I began to associate the subject of this sentence with myself.

He hurriedly turned around and confirmed again, "Is it - me -?" The cold air hit my whole body.

After a quick glance at the man who told the truth, I fought my way through the crowd with lightning speed and an unstoppable attitude. Of course, it’s not just because I feel like I can’t save my face, but also because I still have very important things to do.

Three minutes later, I suddenly stopped in my tracks. "Boss Li, do you still have what I want? Bring it to me quickly?"

"Girl, what a coincidence, the last one has just been ordered. You know, my business is small. I don’t dare to buy too much at one time. It’s the boy just now. He just left.” Following the direction of the boss’s finger, I knew it was him. That ball of winter warmth.

hateful!

My mood suddenly felt like snow falling in the depths of winter, disappearing without a trace as soon as the wind blew. Because of disappointment, but also because of disappointment after expectations. JAY, who had been waiting for four months, passed me by just one step away.

No one understands my love for JAY. Just like no one understands that the spring breeze is not as good as you.

The secret that cannot be told

I feel like I am standing on the top of the world, watching people coming and going, watching flowers wither and bloom, and then a grand loneliness blooms all over my body. Oh, I forgot to mention, Lu Yan and I have known each other for three years.

At that time, I stole Boss Li’s contact information, then contacted him, and finally got the last album into my hands through various shameless methods. Fate has always been a very mysterious thing. No one knows when it was born, and no one can predict when it will end. It’s the unknown that makes it so fascinating.

It was already 12 o'clock when I arrived at "Hand in Hand", and my crappy wedge heels really made me suffer a lot along the way.

Oh, damn stinky. Who makes you so beautiful? If you don't seek death, you won't die.

"Hand Hand" is a very niche coffee shop. The most unique thing about it is that everyone who enters must hold hands in pairs and cannot be separated the whole time. Therefore, most of the people who come here are couples.

And we should be above friendship and below love.

This is the so-called ambiguity. But I, an inelegant southern girl, don’t like it.

Lu Yan wore a black coat today with a white shirt underneath, and a black Nike canvas bag hung lazily on his 1.84-meter tall head.

We skipped the pleasantries and greetings, and went one after another with "tacit understanding".

I put my hands in my pockets. In fact, it was not that cold in October. That was just my intention. Lu Yan, will you hold my hand?

"Yu Yu, why are you here? Do you have to hold hands to enter? It's not good for us to do this..."

"Lu Yan, how about we hold hands and go in?" ? I have something to tell you."

Without allowing him to nod, I stretched out my hand and held his arm. However, the "height difference" between me who is 1.58 meters tall and him who is 1.84 meters tall is not the cutest one.

Does it also mean that only by standing on tiptoes can I hug you and hug the distance between us?

Lu Yan did not break away, nor did he lower his head to look at me. He just opened the door and walked into the warm and silent coffee house as if nothing had happened. But I was as docile as a puppy following its master, content and silent.

A cup of cappuccino took us all afternoon. Our chatting, our sudden silence, our inability to look at each other and smile, all melted into this unexplained three hours. Only I know everything. Lu Yan let go of my hand. So casual, yet so hurtful.

When I walked out of the coffee shop, I suddenly realized that it was starting to rain. Much later, I listened to a song by JAY called "You Are Everywhere". The lyrics said, "In the rain with tears, you are everywhere."

"Cold coffee leaves the coaster. , the emotion I hold back is very late. The most beautiful thing is not the rainy day, but the eaves hiding from the rain with you."

"Yu Yu, I participated in our school's New Year's Day performance, but our band. My guitarist broke his right hand last week, and I couldn’t find a suitable one for a while. I heard that you play the guitar well, and I wonder if you would be willing to help me.”

“Then what about me?” Where’s the reward?”

“You’ll know when the time comes.”

Let it go, don’t let it go. In one thought, in a blink of an eye. Maybe I'm still obsessed with your answer.

All the way to the North

As expected, Lu Yan, who likes JAY, chose "All the way to the North". The formal performance was wonderful. When the first note of music resounded in the auditorium, I also plucked the first chord at the right time. Standing on the stage, I looked at Lu Yan under the lights, looking at him in shining clothes like a prince who accidentally fell into this world. It seemed as if time had stopped at that moment forever. I was the only one in my memory. Lu Yan, and we are heading north together.

The music stopped at Lu Yan’s handsome ending pose, and then Lu Yan turned his head and looked at us, preparing to take the curtain call together.

Maybe he didn't expect that at that moment, I would walk to the side of the stage, take the roses I asked my best friend to order for me the day before, put on the princess crown, and then proudly appear on the stage again.

Indeed, even I did not expect that I would be so bold.

In someone else's university, under the gaze of nearly 6,000 people, against the backdrop of gorgeous LED lights, when I was 18 years old, I confessed to Lu Yan, whom I had known for several years.

The red rose instantly aroused the climax of the audience. In an instant, the applause and cheers from the crowd came to me like a tide.

The roses were so beautiful under the light that they even burned me so much that I couldn't open my eyes. I couldn't see Lu Yan's expression. I only knew that if there was such a thing as telepathy, I was sure that Lu Yan was unhappy. of.

When the other members of the band saw me holding the rose and trembling, they immediately understood what was going on and stepped aside in a cooperative manner, leaving me to walk towards Lu Yan like a clown that attracted everyone's attention.

"Hello, Lu Yan!" Suddenly he heard his own voice coming from the speakers not far from the stage. He had played the guitar for others on stage countless times, but this was the first time he played it on stage. Hear your own voice on the stage.

I finally saw Lu Yan’s expression. He didn’t raise his head, but the shock and confusion on his face was instantly captured by me.

Lu Yan, if there is such a thing as mind reading, I think I must be the best technician. Do you believe it?

"We have known each other for three years, and what I did today will probably take away half of my courage. But no matter what, I just want to be with you. Yu Yu really likes you, very much I like you. I really do.”

Tears fell suddenly and unexpectedly, in the winter when I first met you and you told me to wear my sweater inside out, and then I secretly left your phone number. This was the reason for dating you countless times in the spring. It fell on you when I was sixteen when you rode a bicycle. It fell on Jay Chou’s white headphones that we listened to countless times together. It fell on the two Jay Chou concerts that we cried and begged adults to buy. The ticket falls on your black sweater, on my white windmill, on your romantic mobile phone. The maltose that fell on me.

You said, Jay Chou's lyrics are too beautiful to be true.

So you said, we all have to practice his lyrics.

But you forgot, I am not a goldfish, my memory is more than 7 seconds.

"Yu Yu, I'm sorry. Sorry, everyone." Lu Yan disappeared from my eyes after insisting on apologizing to the public.

At that moment, I knew that the spotlight around the world had dimmed.

Later, Lu Yan said to me.

As the world gets bigger, so will your heart.

The time is even more tiring.

The end of the world

It has been a year since we disappeared into each other's world. This is 2012.

On December 21st, the legendary end of the world, I finally dialed Lu Yan’s phone number in a faint voice.

"Hello, hello, I'm Lu Yan. Who are you looking for?"

"Hi, it's me. Long time no see."

" Are you okay?" Still the same slightly tired voice.

"I'm fine, how about you?"

"I'm sorry."

"Lu Yan, do you believe in the end of the world?"

But you don't know, Lu Yan, that I would rather believe in the end of the world, because then the so-called "parallel time and space" in "Those Years" might appear.

Do you believe there is a parallel time and space?

Shen Jiayi said, thank you for liking me. p>

Ke Jingteng said, I also like the me who liked you back then.

"Then Lu Yan, if the world really ends on this day, would you be willing to hold my hand at the last moment. ? "

"Yu Yu, don't be stupid, there is no such thing as the end of the world. ”

I seem to hear JAY singing with tears, the sky is gray, will it make you forget who I am.

Lu Yan, the road ahead is long, will you I will forget who I am.

Step Back

In 2014, the movie "The Year in a Hurry" was released to great effect and regretted the winter of a generation.

Of course, I am also one of those people. Indeed, many people have suffered mysterious losses. Perhaps the most regretful thing in life is not not loving, but leaving without any reason.

Indeed, I am not reconciled. I'm really not willing to give in.

I was really surprised that Lu Yan agreed to my invitation to watch the movie "The Year in a Time" together.

Yes, everything should have an ending.

While waiting, Lu Yan and I went to the audio store we go to most often. JAY released his 13th solo album, and we got to know each other because of JAY.

If it is really going to end, Lu Yan, we should say goodbye here.

Boss Li has moved out, and a young man has taken over. The business in the store is very bleak, and it will take a long time before someone comes to hang out.

Those people must all have stories. I think.

Lu Yan and I walked side by side like this. No one had the urge to break the seemingly harmonious silence first.

"Lu Yan, can you tell me why we can't be together? I want an answer."

Lu Yan's sudden stop still shocked me. After all, No matter how strong I am, I am still a girl.

"Yu Yu, I really want to say it. You know, people who are too familiar are not suitable for lovers. If we have to take risks, the final outcome will definitely be sad. If we have to I would rather not have started."

"Lu Yan, I want to tell you that if I have a chance to choose, I will definitely start bravely because I am most afraid of regrets. I’m more afraid of not having a happy ending with you.”

I still cried while watching the movie. Because let go. I finally don’t love you anymore, never again. I will always remember what it feels like to like you. I will also remember the deep pain I felt when I cried for you yesterday afternoon. Really, it hurt deeply. I hope that all my love for you will disappear forever with these tears.

At the 60th minute of the movie, I left with an excuse. Also, left forever.

I know that none of us are wrong, we just forgot how to step back.

I made a promise, but it was wasted by time.

A traveler from the end of the world.

?JAY has released another album. I also cut my long hair short.

I stayed for two years, and I was very reluctant to leave.

I finally chose to say goodbye to my past and start my own life. May we smile and greet each other as we did when we first met.

Goodbye, Qilixiang. Goodbye, my Lu Yan.

The strings are broken, the fate is over, and you are gone.

The ups and downs of love and hate, the story passed, leaving only me