If you have the idea of becoming sha. Take a few minutes to have a look, okay?
I'm just a high school student. I have been in contact with many depressed patients since junior high school. It's really hard to see them. Maybe I will study social work to help more people in the future. Clinical psychology is my lifelong dream, but I can't choose. Don't ask me why. I don't want to answer this question. This is my pain. Just let me struggle.
These days, I have seen many people leave this world because of psychological pressure. I wrote this article with emotion.
I just want to write down my thoughts here, hoping that more people will see and think. I also learned a lot about psychology. I am not a psychological idiot, not a simple lover.
Look, it's up to you. I can't impose my values on you.
In this world, almost everyone has had the idea of killing himself. Maybe you will be afraid of your own thoughts, maybe you will suddenly feel special and insecure, but all this is normal. You know, you are not the only one who has this kind of trouble in this world.
Everyone has their own troubles and pains, and everyone has despair, but this is never the reason for you to go to the sand. Do you think you are the only one suffering? Do you think no one can understand your pain? But you are actually wrong. There are too many people worse off than you in this world. Have you ever experienced the feeling of being terminally ill and knowing that you will leave in a month?
You're not the only one in trouble. You're not the only one who has ideas about sand. You just can't accept the fact.
I used to be like you. My pain began with looking at people who want to be sand so much. Watching your troubles is my greatest pain. Maybe you'll find me ridiculous. What is the pain of others? But you don't understand what it's like to watch many people leave this world every day. From once incomprehensible to now empathetic. In my life, I met as many setbacks as you, and I also met many things. I have been pushed out by many people, hurt and laughed at. I've never met them. I also wanted to go to the rooftop from the sand, but I gradually learned to be calm. The moment I stood on the rooftop, I realized a lot of things.
Forgive me for being mean here.
Someone once naively asked me how to die without pain. Do you know anyone who really wants to be sand? Jump, willy-nilly Fear of death. What are you thinking, Sha? The most painless death is to live quietly until the day of death!
When many people said they were going to the sand, many ignorant people actually replied with words like "go to hell" and "jump". Maybe you think that people who say they are going to sand are just making a mountain out of a molehill, but have you ever considered that some people ask for help when they are desperate? Sometimes these words of yours will only cause two situations:
1. Began to be afraid and gave up the idea of sand.
2. Maybe it's a competitive heart, maybe it's a complete hatred of the world, maybe it's a desperate heart, and I feel that no one understands me. So I left on impulse.
Will those who say these things please consider the feelings of others? This is not a joke, only some naive people will joke about death. Since sha is not a game! Death is not fun!
Maybe you said these words. When you see what I said, you will have two thoughts:
1. Understanding, change and reflection
I am disgusted, I think it is meaningless for me to pretend to say these words.
Sometimes people ask you, have you really thought it over? Will you regret it after the sand? Maybe you will confidently answer no, this confidence, I don't know where you come from. This is not something to boast about in itself, but you answered no so decisively. Do you know what real regret is? Leave without a word! Don't answer if you can't. Don't!
You think you won't regret it. Maybe you were still shivering and thinking a lot when you stood on the roof. At the moment you think, you should realize that you will regret it. I will. And the moment you jump, that's when you really realize your regret. You think this is a relief. You think jumping off a building is only a temporary pain, and you will never be confused again. However, you are wrong.
I can only say that, imagine the pain of jumping up and the feeling of the picture. First you feel the pain you have never felt before, which is greater than the pain in your heart, and then you can't be sure that you will die.
No one can help you make a choice, we can only say suggestions. What you do in the end depends entirely on yourself. Think about it.
There's so much to say. Wait till next time. I hope you can have a good look. I know that not many people have the patience to finish reading an article with a lot of words, and I am not qualified to instill my values in you. So it's up to you.
At the end of the article, it is still the same sentence. Everyone has his own troubles and pains, but this can never be a reason for you to become a sand. Feel it.